Past the Decade

Hello, hello! Happy new year!
Been a while, hasn't it?

After everything that happened in the last year, I think I've grown a lot.
I've been to so many places and met so many people. The person who is known to be shy and socially awkward, the weird girl, that is me, had to deal and handle so many people, as a facillitator. And I could do it! I was amazed at myself.

I accepted myself, and I felt free.

I went to so many places.

Palu taught me about strength and recovery. And the light of kindness in the face of suffering. And how important hope is.

Lombok taught me the importance of bonds and cultures. Families and nature, and how it all work together. Of acceptance and living on, no matter how hard it might be.

Bangkok and Penang taught me of going to the roots and working together, and how you are never alone. You always have someone, no matter how far they are, your spirit sisters and brothers. People willing to tell you what you need and what you've been missing.

Semarang was good people and nice meals. It taught me realism and details. And the limits of my own self.

Malang taught me hard work, discipline, and disappointment. It was harsh but I learned so many things. Technical things, relations, people, and trust. On another occasion, it taught me of history, and culture, and storytelling. How to weave your space and words into something people can make out.

Surabaya taught me of curiosity and the spirit of learning, anywhere, anytime. That you never really know anything. That you never are really in control.

And lastly, Yangon taught me the strength of working together. And how everything has a way to be solved, in harmony with each other. Looking at bigger pictures. Of people and families.

I also survived a lot of heartbreaks; different ways of heartbreak.

And here I am, after going through them all, thinking, what kind of heartbreak is the worst heartbreak?

The answer is none.

Heartbreaks are awful in their own ways. Whether it's a friend, a lover, a soulmate, a caretaker. Separation of bonds, of distance, of life and death. It's all so agonizing when you realize that you will not see some people ever again. That you will never be able to be with someone. That a future you have clung into might just shatter, leaving you with nothing.

If you've survived (or are surviving) a heartbreak, I'm cheering on you! You are a very strong person. We can go through it, we can go through everything!

Now march on. The world is full of warm smiles. Share your love to the world, and the world with return to you uncountable kindness.

Go on!