Hi!

I've been abandoning this blog for sooo long :'3 and I seem to only come back when I feel down.
Which is not nice considering that I made this blog with the goal of having a collection of silly misadventures to laugh at when I am bored.

A lot happened!! So many things happened, and I just realized that I haven't even wrote my current study exchange in Portugal :'3
Yeah...somehow I got accepted into an Erasmus program to Univ. of Porto, and I've been here for almost two months. Is it fun? Well yeah it is! Time flies so fast >w< and I am enjoying everyday~

Obviously I have a lot of stories to tell, most of them I won't remember to recall XD but I'll try to collect some memories that can make me or other random people who pass by this blog smile when they read it.
 
((It is truly a blessing for me to know that the chance someone i know IRL to still read this is almost zero))

Up and down exist of course, and while I don't get much culture shock, I still hate the fact that most of my subjects are taught in Portuguese...of which I understand almost to zero level. Some teacher will later explain to me in English (albeit much shorter ofc and without the inspirative phrases or experiences or neat tricks most teachers would utter out while they ramble on and on) but, it still sucks to be clueless.

I hope this experience will teach me a lot of things~

So...wish me luck?

See you! XD

Imagine
You're in front of the dark lord,
your weak wand in hand.
Big chance to die in ten seconds
One spell, one scream, is all it takes
to make someone twenty meters away come to your aid.
But will you risk their lives,
Not knowing if they can handle it?
Will you make them risk their lives? Suck out their life essence, for a very small chance of victory?
What if you both get killed in the act? Will you forgive yourself?



which is what I feel right now.
I want to call out so bad, to tell them that I'm scared and I don't know if I can make it.
I want to cry out and tell someone I'm so tired, and hear them say that everything will be alright... and to know that it will be.
But this burden is so heavy... I'm not sure I wan't anyone to shoulder it.
I know it, I'm making my own life so much more complicated, but what can I do?
I keep telling myself, I have to make it. Then I can bring people I love into my life without risking their happiness.

makes no sense, but...

I hope it's not too late by the time I make it.
And I can still find it.
My own happiness.