anywhere I am,
I never feel at home

never once,did I feel like
I belong
I wonder why?

I'm always fidgeting on my feet
Smiling for one moment and wobbling at the next

Tugging,
but afraid to hold on

Why?

Then I thought,

Maybe I'm the one who never
Welcomed anyone in

But...how?

Silly Daily

Ehh, I've got so many stupidities I haven't published here XDD

For example.....hmnnn.... if you try to remember it, it's kinda hard huh....

1)
Two weeks ago, me and two of my classmates decided to go on a spontaneous picnic in a nearby park. It was awesome and the weather was so nice. We sat nomadically following the moving sunlight XD

Well, it's near summer, so the sun is out until 8pm.
Maybe that was why we didn't realize the hour had struck 7, and paid no mind as people were leaving.
In the end, we got stuck inside :> no park keeper, secluded entrance too. No shelter. Much panic.
Some portuguese passed by and panicked with us xD

In the end we were lucky to find a place where we can climb out of the park, ofc with much difficulty XD

2)
Just today I was walking down a street when a group of punk kids passed by. I was focused on my phone bcs was chatting someone.

Suddenly, a kid just screamed 'Aaaaaaawwww!' in punk style high-pitched vibrating voice. I jumped a bit, and tried my best to cover my shock. But maybe they recognized after all coz soon one other kid also shouted, 'Aaaaaaawwww!'

Lel what was that, a wolf's call or smth XD

I will come back with more stories when I manage to remember them

Somehow, I often stumble upon secrets I'm not supposed to know

Things people kept so tightly bound that you'd never even guess.

At first, I hated it. Often times they are against everything I believed it. They destroyed my rose-rimmed view of the world, of the people I love. I didn't want to know, I'd rather not know.

Sometimes I lied to my self, convincing that it was just a mistake. But then absolute prove slaps me in the face.

Nowadays... sometimes I;m not even surprised anymore.
And seeing them conjure the prettiest lie about it...

I laugh. It gets funny.

Nowadays, my beautiful wonderland has transformed anyway. So I thought, maybe, it is better that I know.
Because if you look at it from a different view...it makes life much more enjoyable. Entertaining.

I don't look through rose-rimmed canvas anymore.
I guess, nowadays I'm looking into a screen--or a book page--instead.