i wonder

i wonder
if they care about me just as much as i do about them
i wonder

i wonder
if they also see me as something precious
if they would miss me
if they were happy having me around
i wonder

i wonder
how do i look in their eyes?
am i so meaningless in their everyday life?
do they listen to my sayings,
and care about it as much as i do?

i wonder
what am i
to them

but now
i think i hate them