note to the hatter

hatter,
I miss all those walks we took,
the long journeys
with bonfires
and fireflies
and stars
and strange mushrooms,

of conversations with the roses
and the clouds
and the fly-horses,

of days staring into the sky,
the thirteen-colored rainbow
shooting so high,

hatter,
are our roads still there?
overgrown and muddy,
but can we track it down?

now I'd like to go somewhere
I'd like to find the way,
write it down and send them to you,
in letters with envelopes
the color of the earth, and grasses, and skies

but I can't find the roads,
there are old maps
I have to decipher,
and for that, strange languages
I have to learn,

hatter,

where are you now?
did you find what you wanted?
now that I know what I want,
I am more clueless than ever

hatter.

I miss being lost

It rained, a light trickle just enough to wet the earth and send a wave of petrichor up the damp air.
I rushed my bike home and ran to my window, eager to let it in. The familiar smell of soil, as the earth smiled, happiness evaporating into joyful lungs.

langit dan bumi

Getaran pita suara, semakin meninggi dan semakin meninggi. Terlanjur tinggi, tak terkontrol lagi. Bila jatuh, mungkin akan kesakitan--begitu takutnya. Begitu tinggi hingga tanah tak terlihat lagi.

Kita makhluk-makhluk angkasa, begitukah?

Turun, turun, mari kita turun. Aku ingin turun. Bantulah aku turun. Agar aku dapat merasakan kembali hijaunya daun dan wanginya tanah. Agar angin yang tinggi dan ribut kepak sayap tak membawa suara kita.

Agar aku dapat mendengarmu lagi.

Choco Bibi Appreciation Post

So~! Here we are today with Choco Bibi from ''Hardcore Levelling Warrior'' webtoon. If you ask me why, it's bc HLW is dope and Choco Bibi is just too cute.

 

Choco Bibi has so many potential and he might be the best support character to have in your team for a game. Those spatial magic skills are just too dope! And smh I like his character design--the weird formal-informal, soldier-wizard look, and his cute signature tele dolls. And that illustration with the flying cushion lmao, definitely much more comfy than broom. He seems to be a chill guy, good sport, and good leader and strategist too.

And he is cute as heck. I also love his signature not-too-cocky-but-cheeky style.

That's all for today with my fangirlingness hehe

Wish people would make him more fanart

Hop - a - lop!
Hop - a - lop!

On a mushroom top,
the bunny lands with a-plop!

Leaps, oh it leaps
Sending leaves flying in heaps

Leaves, oh it leaves
Ignoring so many pleas

Down down down it goes
Along where the river flows
Where boats sits in rows
And I stand in tiptoes

how colorful

How colorful it is
to wake up and
listen to your own breath
watch the sunlight
between your fingers

press your cheek to
the cold windowsill
and smell the fog
as dawn takes off
and another day begins

Dear Spade,
I took a walk this morning. Not too far, just a stroll along the riverbank across my home. Dawn was breaking on me, and the sky was colorfully painted in shades of red and blue.
I took my sweet time and rediscovered a lot of things.
It took me too long to realize that my neighbor in the far east of the street had such pretty and lush roofgarden, with pretty sunflowers. And that just behind the houses, you can see the school building very clearly from across the river--you can even wave to the students, if there were any.
Some birds greeted me on the way, flying around so energetically--when I realized that they were actually little bats. I wonder where their home were, and if they liked early mornings, too.
I noticed my shallow breath, and fast pace. I slowed down, just like you would, on walks like this. Took as much precious oxygen into my lungs and waste them away. You're right, I have to slow down. You won't need to match my pace, no need to get tired out. Not you, not anyone, not even me. So that I can take on everything as they were, face them bravely, give back what is deserved.

A nice morning in a messy downtown. They need not talk to me, need not understand me. I'm already at home.

They just need to exist.

You just need to exist.

(Thank you)

a hundred versions of the same poem
a thousand emotions compressed
a threat of incredulous explosions
a mess of tangled yarn in twelve colors

you
are a piece of work, my dear

Lagi

Lagi.

Terjadi lagi.

Aku merasa bodoh, lagi.

Aku masih sebodoh ini ternyata. Kukira aku sudah berubah. Sudah berganti strategi. Lebih berani. Lebih membuka mata.

Tapi akhirnya...

...sekali lagi, aku membiarkan tugu itu roboh,

menoleh sepersekian detik terlalu lambat.


Tugu kartu,

serapuh debu.

Kumpulan kartu as-ku

juga tak mampu.


Salah lagi, ya?

Maukah kau berdiri lagi?

Bolehkah kubantu dirimu, merangkai kembali struktur segitigamu?

Maukah kamu?

--ya, kali ini demi aku. Se egois itu.

(jangan biarkan aku gila di bawah tumpukan kartu)

Roller Coaster

Truly, but the difference is that life is unpredictable.
Even a predictable roller coaster still scares the scream out of us, what about life?

Is like playing peek a boo on a rollercoaster.
Wow?

Wow!

Well anyway, but unlike roller coaster too, God is kind and will give us much happiness once the cliffs are over.

So keep looking forward to tomorrow!

repopulating my blog with this cute picture from AdobeStock

''Are you Alice?''

The girl turned back. Who was the stranger? She never saw him before. The confusion must have been clear in her face, because the stranger smiled sheepishly and introduced himself.

''I am Hatter, a lost traveler. I was told that you are the guardian of this place.''

Alice thought, then nodded. ''Yes, I am. What do you require of me?''

''Can you show me the way to the castle of Jack-of-All-Trades?'' he asked.

Alice looked at him sheepishly, ''Well, unfortunately, I don't have any idea where that is.''

---




- Alice -
A short story.

---
Welcome to wonderland! She had said. She wasn't so regretful to announce that she was also lost in her own land, but she had some idea where the place he was looking for was, and offered to take the journey with him instead--so they could be a little less lost together. There was no other way, so amusedly, he agreed.

The two crossed various landscapes--her airy steps took them wherever the wind blows. Booby traps with bridges accross the dimensions sometimes appeared and took them to totally strange locations, sometimes familiar and other times not. What kind of guardian was she, to be lost in her own land? he thought, still amused. On and on they traveled, battling strange creatures and seeing weird phenomenons, meeting people who was as surprised as her to see her. (Some of them said, I didn't expect to see you again) Some gates posed questions to solve before they could pass through, and some places was such a messy wasteland he had to help her pick up the fallen ruins as she used her magic to place it back where it belong. More and more things show up as they walk by.
They took a long way--or a shorter way, he couldn't tell--but in the end, they reached the destination.

It was tiring, but strangely, he found it rather fascinating. Maybe even fun.

And now, it had ended.

He contemplated a little bit as they braced themselves to say goodbye.

''Thank you, Alice, for taking me here. But, how come you don't know the way in your own land?''

''Well, why do I need to know the way?''

''I don't know. So you don't get lost?''

''But I don't mind being lost.''

He stared at her, intrigued.

''But what if there is somewhere you need to go? What if it makes you late to an appointment?''

''I don't have anywhere I want to go.'' Again, she amused him. ''Besides, it's more fun to just go wherever, and discover whatever. Just enjoy the walk, you know? Be surprised.''

For a moment, he was speechless. ''Well, I suppose that's true,'' he replied genuinely. He was about to go when the thought occured to him.

''What if I want to see you again? Where can I find you?''

Alice stopped in her tracks. ''Um. I don't know...''

He laughed; that was so like her. ''You know what? Meet me here, the one bell after the next solar eclipse. I will wait for you here. How about that?''

''Well...'' she bit her lip, carefully replying, ''I really hope I will see you again,'' she said, smiling. ''But I can't really promise that, I mean...''

''You might get lost, huh?'' he finished her sentence. Smiling, he said, ''It's a long time until then. Try to find your way. A map might be a great idea, you can even use copy magic to help people go around your land.'' When she looked unsure, he added : ''You have a beautiful land, but it's a shame no one visits, because it's too easy to get lost, and too hard to go anywhere.''

''Hmn, it's not like I mind if no one visits...'' she replied, but her eyes were sparkling and her gestures unsure. Hatter grinned at her while turning back, waving.

''Well then, see you, Alice!''

''See you,'' she replied, a little too late.

--

She didn't really know when she started to pay attention to where she was going.

For a long time, she was just going wherever she liked to, as before. Sometimes she thought about the promise, and wondered a little how she could get back to where the Hatter was. But mostly she was thinking of something else, chasing the clouds and walking with the wind.

She didn't know when, but 'if I turn right at that tree, I will find Tweedledee's house' she thought, and was surprised to know that she knew. She didn't really know how she ended up in the Worm's library, purchasing a set of ink and feathers, and empty scrolls made from the sweet cork tree. It was also for food supplies, she argued to herself, but in the end she found them full of scribbles, barely edible anymore.

She now knew, that the blue ape tree always points to the right direction, and the colorful valley of talking flowers was just five minutes away from the red castle, if she used the shortcut across the un-deep-abyss. She now knew the White Rabbit had been late to the meeting so often, that he made a track across the Whispering Woods that everyone call as ''The White Rabbit Track'', and listened to Dodo as he told her the skymap of the big lake; a big help for the aerial forces. Along her adventures, sometimes she found barren land and torched ground, dusty places and messy ruins, that she never really finished healing (she told herself she could always come back and tidy them up little by little). By time she started to realize that the wings of the Flyhorse changed colors in the sunlight, and the painted red roses magically turn pure white at sunrise, and that the cotton-candy clouds told tales by shapeshifting themselves in the sky.

Suddenly she needed another scroll of sweetcork. And blue paints--yellow, red and blue paints.

She needed to draw that beautiful calm water near the castle.

''Chesire, which way is the right way?'' she asked one day to the cat-head floating above the low tree-branch.

Yawning, it replied, ''Well, where do you want to go?''

This time, Alice smiled confidently. ''Castle of Jack-of-all-Trades.''

---

Silly Daily

Ehh, I've got so many stupidities I haven't published here XDD

For example.....hmnnn.... if you try to remember it, it's kinda hard huh....

1)
Two weeks ago, me and two of my classmates decided to go on a spontaneous picnic in a nearby park. It was awesome and the weather was so nice. We sat nomadically following the moving sunlight XD

Well, it's near summer, so the sun is out until 8pm.
Maybe that was why we didn't realize the hour had struck 7, and paid no mind as people were leaving.
In the end, we got stuck inside :> no park keeper, secluded entrance too. No shelter. Much panic.
Some portuguese passed by and panicked with us xD

In the end we were lucky to find a place where we can climb out of the park, ofc with much difficulty XD

2)
Just today I was walking down a street when a group of punk kids passed by. I was focused on my phone bcs was chatting someone.

Suddenly, a kid just screamed 'Aaaaaaawwww!' in punk style high-pitched vibrating voice. I jumped a bit, and tried my best to cover my shock. But maybe they recognized after all coz soon one other kid also shouted, 'Aaaaaaawwww!'

Lel what was that, a wolf's call or smth XD

I will come back with more stories when I manage to remember them

Somehow, I often stumble upon secrets I'm not supposed to know

Things people kept so tightly bound that you'd never even guess.

At first, I hated it. Often times they are against everything I believed it. They destroyed my rose-rimmed view of the world, of the people I love. I didn't want to know, I'd rather not know.

Sometimes I lied to my self, convincing that it was just a mistake. But then absolute prove slaps me in the face.

Nowadays... sometimes I;m not even surprised anymore.
And seeing them conjure the prettiest lie about it...

I laugh. It gets funny.

Nowadays, my beautiful wonderland has transformed anyway. So I thought, maybe, it is better that I know.
Because if you look at it from a different view...it makes life much more enjoyable. Entertaining.

I don't look through rose-rimmed canvas anymore.
I guess, nowadays I'm looking into a screen--or a book page--instead.

I used to count the days before I met you,
not knowing what it was even for
I counted to seven and it was Sunday,
and I'd groan because on the morrow it would be back to one again

I didn't count the days after I met you,
because time flew so fast
colors struck me and it felt like there was
a thousand more important thing to take note of,
so why bother?
And I know, even if I didn't,
you'd smile,
take up the chalk,
and scribble the counts for me.

I didn't want to count the days after you left me,
because the days were long, and the sunshine left imprints in my eyes.
But I picked up your counts anyway, while boredom consumed my mind
in this space where you once existed

It's getting dull here.
Won't you come back?
Saw the counts today, and I think it's been long enough.
Do you miss me yet?

-an old poem and an old artwork-

Homeworks and Messengers.

'Hey! What's up?'
'Nothing, I just woke up.'
'You went somewhere last night?'
'Yep, until 5. How about you, what did you do today?'
'(thinks) Homework.'
'And then?'
'Homework.'
'And? What else?'
'Homework.'
'How about tomorrow?'
'Homework.'

Me and my roomie, this afternoon while cooking lunch.
Ha. Goodbye, my weekend. These homeworks are almost as possesive as Jumin Han.

Come to think about it... about Mystic Messenger. I tried it and been wasting more than a week of my time, looking at the days counts. And I'm in progress of my second route right now. To conclude everything... I think that save for Jaehee, all the characters here are mentally unstable. Period.

I also don't get how is it that the characters make more sense when you play a route that is not theirs. When you go into one character's route, they seem to lose their common sense. Hmmnn.

Imma play more and maybe write a proper review.

Money Laundering

Between all the crazy things that happened ever since I arrive here.. there's one that is quite recent and...crazy =w=
Don't worry... I'm not going to jail.... not yet
I still don't even know what is going on.

So about the title. Yeah.

So.
One day... I was retracting some cash and noticed that 3000euros has been transferred into my bank account.  Well, I didn't really pay much attention, I thought it was just my monthly scholarships paid upfront or something. I took 20 euros and continued on with my life. I even joked about getting my scholarship upfront to my friend whose scholarship is still suspended.

Then something really weird happened.

Two days later, the bank called me, asking me if I was expecting some sort of transaction from my family or business partner(s). I was clueless ofc, and said no. They referred to the 3000euros recent transaction and wished to know what the transaction purpose was. Still calm, I told them that it was perhaps my scholarship money, but no, they said, the scholarship money is usually transferred from the university bank account, and this transfer was from some private account.

I was utterly flabbergasted.

As dumbfounded as I was, I explained my cluelessness and promised to look into the matter.

I logged into my netbanking (which is all in portuguese and i don't understand most of the site at all) and googled the name listed in the transaction, but alas, it was only the bank name--Nomander Saine or smth, a french bank.
I tried contacting my course coordinator, who is a french univ, but... no helpful clue so far. No one has any idea, and no one requested to have their money returned either.

It is a very weird situation lololol. I asked the bank staff what will happen next if I don't find any clue and they are just like... ''Well, then, it's your lucky day!''

lol r u sirius

Anyway, I do not plan to use the money =w=''' this whole situation just smells too fishy haha. I hope I am not getting a fraud or something...

Lol
Anyway, one more stupid thing. The bank staff suggested me to download the mobile banking app to make my banking easier, since it's the only thing they have in English, but my phone simply sucks lol. I have no enough memory--and that with only messengers(only line and whatsapp), one dictionary, book reader app, alarm app, muslim app and one game app inside. And you know what?

''Have a nice day, Miss. And you know what, buy a new phone.''

;;;; lel even the banker is tellin me to buy a new phone, geez. Maybe I will...later. Two months or smth. I also need a new lappy, this one is gettin old and I need more crazy 3d modelling software.

But yeah, later. Not gonna touch this fishy money.
Not yet. Must hold the temptation. Need 10 more random transactions before i can fly off to galapagos. Wish me luck on that

See ya on my next tales of misadventures!

 
oh, and, have some random pics to refresh your eyes xD 
Pics I took around Porto. No edits 'cz I'm a lazyass xD

Malu-maluin

The title basically means...being embarrassing,

Wherever and whatever I do... I keep on embarrassing myself, I suppose. =w=
Why on earth do I have to be so clumsy?
Lol lemme retell the tales for you.

Hmm. So, ever since I got here, I go to some dinners/lunches organized by Indonesians who live here. Never did I expect to find so many chances to taste Indonesian food with their spices and plain rice.
 It's truly a blessing to still be able to eat Indonesian food...which I never ate before.

Lolololol yeah, it's Indonesian food, but oft times they are not the foods I am familiar with. Maybe because we're all from different regions of Indonesia--but nevertheless I am thankful, and they always succeed to bring my appetite up all the same! Bless spices! Bless micin!! Bless sugar in food!!! Yahoo!

(Must I tell you that among 9 people who live in my house, I am the only one who has sugar? These Europeans...how can they live without sugar...)

And it's a very good opportunity because I meet many great people, who, due to the rarity of Indonesians, get along so close. I get the feeling that they'd barely notice me had we not meet here lol.

If only I could stop embarrassing myself in public.

First of all, I wish I could stop spilling things. I kinda look like a moron when I try to pour 5l water into a glass and poured twice the amount required instead. I'm sure the people who watched me got embarrassed as well, while I panic even more and try to clean it.

Mmm hmm. 

There's another one. One time, friends from home wanted to make vidcall just in the same schedule as an important meeting (and feast) to choose the new PPI (Perkumpulan Pelajar Indonesia) Portugal. And in the middle of the meeting my phone rang and I accidentally picked it up, panicking to answer and having the cat get my tongue while ruckuses can be heard from the speaker. T--T gosh....they laughed at me...

And there's one that is even worse.

So...one time, I was invited with the others to attend lunch with the Honorable General Comisary (Konjen Kehormatan) Portugal - Indonesia for Trades and Business. He was a very fun and intelligent man with quick wit and keen memory. We all talk about a lot of things, and I really do hope he remembered my name.

The thing is...in one of the conversation my offline geographical sense was revealed by me totally forgetting where Magelang is. Now, if you ever know the temple of Borobudur which was one of the world's seven wonders and is the biggest Buddha temple in the world--yep, it's in Magelang, Middle Java, Indonesia. Yet.....I....

''Umm....Magelang, wait, where is Magelang again... near Bromo Mountain?''

//dude, that's Malang.

I have no idea...is my pun sense so strong that I pun into oblivion...I must not give in and be controlled by puns....

A-anyway. I was panicking when everyone kinda, ''No, girl did u learn geography at all srsly'' and admitted that I am bad at remembering streets and roads as well, AS IF it was necessary to embarrass myself any further....

There's actually even more stories of me embarrassing myself, but...ung 

.....when will I ever have that cool image I always want in the mind of great colleagues... I wanted to perform networking.... I need it.... sobs sobs

W-well, anyway. But some nice things happened, too. I meet many people and I make so many friends I was quite surprised with myself. As usual I have a bad time managing it, haha, but, I think it's all well X3
And I became the Secretary and Treasurer of PPI! Tho I don't do much here. Oh well. It'd be good to have in my CV.  /slapped
>w</ hope I will continue to do better!!

See you in my next misadventures!

~Ela

Crispy Puns

Holy
(comic gonna be released soon)

When a story is incomplete, it has a holy plot.

Mayday, Mayday, our sergeant had been shot and now he's a holy man.

 /patroling an old building/
Soldier A : Don't go into that room! That is a holy space.
Soldier B : Huh? What are you talking abo--AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!

/screams sound in the background/
Soldier C : (looking into binoculars) Holy Shit!
Soldier D : huh? What's wrong!
Soldier C : See this. (hands over binocular)
Soldier D : ...ah. Who shot through the horse droppings?

Soldier X : Aaaagh, captain!
Cap'n       : What happened to you, soldiers?
Soldier Y :W-we met a holy person!
Cap'n       : Who-- /sees sundel bolong/ AAAAAAHH!!

Weird Puns

There's a weirdo who befriends weirdoes and does weird things.
But weirdoes he goes if he's a weirdo?
He goes to the weirdrobes and meet Aslan, a relative of weirwoods.

Real Life Puns

A group of gorillas are called a band; thus the band name 'Gorillaz'
And a group of baboons are called a congress.

Cat

''Y'know when a cat is hurt it either says mi-aw or me-ow.''
''That's furry stupid''

As of late me and my friend had been sharing crispy puns. We cannot stop. XD

These are the most recent ones that I remember.

a bee ran into a dragonfly

and they together created a new unique species. really, there's this dragonfly with wings in bees pattern at its and I just stared there while it flew swirling around me. i even took a picture (in my phone, i'll upload it in instagram maybe)

and also

something happened and how happy my mood became really puzzles me. what am i, a fool or something...

anyway again~ i'm entering this contest. just a reminder

 

the art is just so cute aagh I cannot resist ><

so imma make brass design or there charas

anyway I really miss some people but I dont wanna tell... as usual...

do they even remember me :< hmph.

i will ask, but if one doesn't want to tell, then i wont push it, no matter how curious i actually am. i will give a little opening, but if one doesn't want to know badly, well, i think it's better for them not to know--it's not like my story is something grand to know. with that logic i sit here sulking(?)

hahah not really XD

so yeah thats all the lastest news from me <3 p="">

see ya!

a cup for two

We were sitting together, you and I, enjoying cups of hot capucinno as the rain poured down. We were talking about the usual thing. Just us, the two of us.

“What if we had nothing more?” I suddenly asked. 

You eyed me in silence and put your coffee down.

“Don’t ask me that, please. I’ve been strong all this time only because of you. If you say something like that...”

Your eyes were sad. I blinked my own stingy pair.

Then, I forced myself to laugh.

 

I forgot. How can I afford to be weak?

I must keep going, too. Else we'll both break.